Before we get to the mushy gushy end of the year stuff, I would just like to rant for a moment about how finals suck. So much of your grade depends on this one moment, and if you have a bad day or something goes wrong then you can’t perform your best. Furthermore, finals week involves excessive cramming of information, which is the worst way to learn information and has a very low retaining rate. In these final moments before everyone departs, everyone is stressed about exams and then just wants to get out of here as fast as possible. Something should be done about this!
Okay, thank you for putting up with me through that. Now onto the main topic.
My experience at Colby has been unique. As every student constructs their own opinions and walks their own path, we must each decide for ourselves what to do next. Freshman year was truly one of the happiest times in my life. I met so many amazing people and had such great times with all of them. But sophomore year was somewhat a drag and there are many reasons that made it not as good. For one, I had a lot more work. Secondly, my friend group dynamic changed. Thirdly, I haven’t been as active in terms of putting myself out there. I haven’t been hanging out with or even talking to nearly as many people as before. I have been so focused on work and finding a job and figuring out my future, that I haven’t been able to enjoy my time here. I haven’t been able to explore what makes me passionate and excited. Last year, I would play the ukulele all of the time and I miss that. I miss not worrying and just being happy. I miss mellow days of doing just what I want to and not feeling too tired or too lazy to do it.
I have one simple advice to you all….Do What You Love.
This will guide you to happiness. I think people get bogged down on the social pressures of having to know what you want to do with your life and having to make a lot of money. But evaluate for yourself what is important to you. Maybe it is making money and that’s is completely understandable. If that’s what’s important to you then do whatever it takes to make it there. Maybe it’s becoming amazing at photography. Alright, do it. Find something that you love and pursue it.
I recently realized that I always do what I don’t like first because if I do what I like first, then I will get carried away doing that and never do what I don’t want to do. But another problem arises from this. I end up procrastinating on stuff I don’t want to do and then get NO WORK DONE! Terrible right? So I realized that I should do whatever will make me productive. Give yourself a break and stop worrying about the future and all that “needs” to get figured out. Take everything one step at a time and just do what you enjoy
I guess the problem arises when you have mixed interests and you don’t know how to satisfy them all. Life isn’t that simple. You can’t just do photography because you will still worry about finding a job and making money and your parents may want a different future for you and you want to make them happy. You want to make them proud. But where is the middle between making them happy and making yourself happy?
I truly, with all of my heart, with all of my being, believe that if you really love something that you can accomplish greatness doing it. In this world where people have become wildly successful making Youtube videos, taking pictures of people in New York City, blogging about cooking, being a personal shopper, designing new apps, leading ski trips, new jobs are being designed every day! If you become spectacular at that one thing that you love and really push yourself, I truly believe that you can both do what you love, make a lot of money, and be happy. That’s my philospphy anyways.
My issue with this is that I haven’t found something that I love. Thus I am wandering aimlessly and that’s scary. But know that that is okay. People are lost, but you will find your way. Just keep trying new things and reviewing your interests and goals. And just keep doing you.